Fleeting love

Why are relationships so complicated? Isn’t heart break inevitable? Almost always one person develops feelings faster than the other person. What happens if that person doesn’t want to wait? What happens when they want a label too fast? Puts you in such a weird situation. On one hand you love them too much to just let them go but yet on the other hand, you don’t love them enough to commit.

Should you just ignore what your mind is telling you and dive headfirst….or lose that person forever?
“Relationships are too important to learn how to face those issues at the last minute. You have to go through a few of them to know how to properly conduct one. You have to fail. You have to date a few terrible people. You have to be the asshole yourself sometimes. You have to learn how not to be the asshole. You have to spend tons of time together — so much time that sometimes you feel indistinguishable from each other and you find that both reassuring and disturbing. You have to have a vicious fight and know it’s not ending you and that you’re going to have to work to repair it and that the effort is worthwhile.”

I was definitely the asshole this time but it’s so hard to not be one. Should I sacrifice my own happiness for someone else? Should I sacrifice my long term plans for someone else’s short term ones?

New year…new beginnings…clean-ish slate?